Open Mind, Strong Body, Beautiful Soul by Coco Dorsey

January 8, 2007 - lunch with blake at cheers

This was probably the most significant and important conversation I have ever had in my entire life....besides the one when keith decided to ask me to marry him....that, of course, trumps any other....blake decided to take me to lunch....talk with me before my first chemotherapy....what I haven't mentioned before is that he nursed and cared for his mother, his best friend, while she was undergoing treatment for ovarian cancer...a cancer that would eventually take her life....but not her spirit....nor would the disease jar the faith she gave her son....a deep belief in God...and His will...one blake would share with me this day....a meal that would surpass any other I should have in my life...

To be brutally honest, which isn't too hard for me, I'm not quite sure of how I feel about god...I'm not necessarily angry with him...I haven't questioned him...or his will....no reason to really...it is what it is....nothing more....nothing less...there isn't a damn thing I can do about it, right? I can't hide under the covers and pretend its not happening....that's not going to change things....Time to put my big girl panties on and deal with it! So with my extra large, jumbo drawers I walked into cheers for my meeting with my best friend. And today's talk with blake would be different....

We discussed the normal things....ordered our iced teas and French dips....then got down to the nitty gritty....This is how blake sees things...and I soon would feel the exact same way....When you hand over everything to god, you give him the control, let him see with it the way he intends to, the chaos and disorder in your life will all settle....things would eventually make sense....At first I chuckled at blake's naivety, his far-fetched and much less conventional views of our Creator...after all, I was born and raised in the Roman Catholic Church where we believe in more conservative ways God presents his love to us. He continued throughout our lunch hour to present things to me in a much less conventional way....Almost telling me that God's plan is already set for us...that the decisions we make are all a part of his inherent trip, specifically designed for each individual....each soul...here on earth....hmmm! now let's see here....I make my own decisions, right? ...but I have to say...in blake's defense....it seems to me, today, that he was foreshadowing....and stunningly accurate in his assessments.....Everything happens for a reason....quite the cliché'...but so honest....so accurate....